Korea haul!

I BOUGHT SO MUCH STUFF IN THE LAND OF SKINCARE AND MAKEUP AND I AM SO EXCITED TO SHARE EVERYTHING hahaha well I’m only gonna share the beauty products I bought since I also bought a few bags, clothes, and fangirling things hehe


  • Innisfree orchid eye cream – I never really liked any of the eye creams I have been using for the past year, so I decided to research and splurge on an eye cream this time. I watched Joan Kim’s video comparing different eye creams and this one came out on top, and I honestly love it ❤ it smells good and you only need a little amount for both eyes.
  • Holika Holika Wonder Drawing Skinny Eyebrow Pencil – Because #kilayislife (meaning eyebrows are life) haha another product of research, and I watched a video saying that this is a dupe for the Anastasia Brow Pencil. I haven’t tried it yet, and I always use a brow pencil for my brows so I decided to give this one a try. I bought three different colors as I am now confused on what my brow color should be (since I colored my hair a number of times already) and I like how pigmented this pencil is, even the blonde-ish color isn’t bad.
  • Innisfree Volcanic Pore Clay Mask – I like clay masks, and I’m getting lazy in preparing the aztec indian healing clay mask so I bought one of these. I got the 2x version, and I honestly expected more pull from this. Still, I like using this 🙂
  • Laneige Water Sleeping Mask – I always make it a point to have an extra tub of this everytime since I love using it so much (tbh I don’t really see much of a difference for my oily skin but on nights where I feel particularly lazy, I just slather this on after cleansing and I’m good). I also always get the lavender one since I like its scent better than the original.
  • Holika Holika Aqua Petit Jelly BB Cream – I wanted to try using a BB cream instead of a cushion foundation for everyday use, since I think a BB cream would have more benefits for the skin and also feel more lightweight? So I searched for a nice BB cream for oily skin and found this! I’m not sure yet how I feel about this since I don’t know if the color is right after application but I think it looks okay throughout the day….? Still I like using this as it’s very easy to use and lightweight on the skin; I don’t even feel like I applied anything.
  • Innisfree Daily UV Protection Sunscreen – I haven’t started using this yet because I still have some of my sunscreen left but I wanted to try a new one and I heard sunscreens from Innisfree are pretty good.
  • Holika Holika Brow Top Coat – since usually I can live with just using a brow mascara to correct the color of my brows and as I have said in one of my previous posts, I’m not happy with my current brow mascara because it easily comes off. So I bought a top coat!
  • Club Clio Brow Gel – got this on sale so I bought it even if I had already bought a top coat =))
  • Peripera Brow Tattoo – also got this on sale AND I FEEL SO BAD FOR NOT HOARDING SINCE I DIDN’T KNOW I WOULD LIKE THIS SO MUCH huhuhuhu instantly sets and lightens my brows I WANT TO GO BACK AND HOARD THESE
  • Peripera hand cream – also got this on sale and I also feel bad for not hoarding 😦 I got the Vanilla hug which is like my favorite scent ever AND IT SMELLS SO GOOD
  • Tony Moly Makeup remover – I was really planning to buy a makeup remover since the blackhead balm that I use stings my eyes. I didn’t expect to really like this so much since I got this on sale again 🙂
  • Peripera Airy Ink Velvet – I didn’t actually plan on getting this but I really liked the shade I got (#15, or Bright Plum) and it’s also cheaper to buy it there than if I buy it here in the Philippines.

So that’s it for my haul! I wanted to go back again and buy some more since I wanted to hoard some things and there are some things I didn’t buy but are on my shopping list (like the Dear Klairs charcoal soap and the CosRX Two in One Poreless Power Liquid) so I’m excited to go back on Feb! Cheers! #

Love, Lady 💛

South Korea, 2018

Expectation: This post will narrate how the trip has been the break that I needed; that after this I felt recharged and ready to take on my life again; and I will be more ready for my tasks as I have taken a few days to relax and unwind.

Reality: I keep trying to look for literally anything connected to the expectation above to write about this trip. I want to say that it felt like the break I needed, and that I’m more willing to go to work again.

That is not entirely the case.

Prior to going to Korea, I have talked to my doctor about my anxieties and worries and asked for advice on what I should do. I have also talked to my adviser regarding my work, how I don’t think I can deliver what I have promised. Both of them have been understanding and encouraged me not to stress about the things in my life and to enjoy my week-long vacation in Korea, and just think about everything else once I get home.

So that’s what I did. From the moment I arrived at the airport to wait for my flight to Incheon, I tried not to think about the work. I basked in the excitement I never got to feel weeks before the trip because there were just too many things to worry about. I let myself feel happy that I got back in my favorite place on Earth. I resolved that for a week, I’m not a researcher, I’m not a lecturer, I’m not a student, I’m not working, I’m not a patient, I’m not depressed. I’m a tourist.



And I genuinely enjoyed myself there. I even got to read a web novel, and it was a love story. I met new people. I didn’t feel the need to post pictures while I’m there to show that I was really enjoying myself. We went through the itinerary, took pictures, tried their food (even the spicy ones), went crazy shopping, tried to blend in with the people, tried to speak the little Korean that I know.

I just realized, while I was there, I felt normal. Still hit by sadness every now and then, but my heart felt full.






But it was a vacation, it was just a break from life. As the days went by, as we got nearer to our date of return, I realized that the trip had been an escape. I didn’t want to go back; I never want to leave.

Still, I took the flight back home, and I felt really sad. Going back to the Philippines meant going back to my true self, and going back to live in the reality that I have. I have work to do, bills to pay, students to grade, a thesis to finish, a life to fix. After unpacking the things I bought for the people here, everything begun to sink in. I’m back. Korea is again miles away.

I pondered about two questions: was the trip good for me, and did I get better after the trip?

Short answers: the trip had been good for me, and yes, I felt better after the trip.




You might be wondering how it had been good for me and if I’m really feeling better after the trip, after I just wrote how sad I have been to return. The trip was exactly what I needed; I just didn’t know it.

After getting back, of course I had to accept the reality that yea, I’m still the depressed person who left a week ago. Initially it felt really bad because I was hoping that the trip would make me a brighter person inside, but nothing much has changed. I thought I needed the trip because it would take away some of the negativities that I have, and I’d return happier, just like the Hong Kong trip.

But I needed to feel normal again, to feel like myself, so I can breathe. So there would be something to look forward to in my life again. It was what this trip has shown me: to live in the moment, to not worry, and to have something to look forward to.

It didn’t give me freedom from my worries, but it gave me a glimpse of what’s in store for me if I kept fighting for just a little longer. I’m returning again next February, during the winter. A few months ago, to give myself something to look forward to, I have decided to plan out my life, and one of the plans is to work overseas, but I’m not sure about which country yet. After the trip, I have decided that the country I want to work in would be Korea.

It’s all vague in my mind still, but hey, anything that makes me want to get up in the morning, right? I’m not gonna lie, I’m still not 100% okay, and I still get eaten up by the shitty thoughts in my head. I go to sleep wanting to get away from everything, but I wake up feeling a teeny bit more normal. Not totally better, but it’s already more than I am asking for.


See you again, South Korea 🙂

Also, I have to give the people I traveled with a shoutout since without them, the trip wouldn’t be as fun hahaha



That’s it for this trip! I miss Korea so bad already 😦 #

Love, Lady 💛